Damn it why are they still here!

Of all the things to be wrong about, they had to be wrong about the day of the RApture. Here I was getting all ready and excited for all of "those" people to be gone so I could get in some serious looting and pillaging in, and they have to fuck it up and stick around. No fair.I'm sure it's some sort of conspiracy,

Probably in leauge with Toyota too. Bastards.

Eh, gives me more time to sort through things as I sit here with my big cup of coffee. I have a few concerns here and there rolling around in my head. Truthfully I seem to always be under a lot of stress the last few months. Nothing really in particular, but more in an overall over arching sort of way. Just little things piling up here and there.

Comments from people at work, snide little comments here and there from family members about the same old things. Add that with a whole lot of worry about chel and things going on from time to time there. And I do worry a lot. More than I let on and I do what I can to provide what comfort I can. Even if it is just little touches types of things here and there.

Sometimes I jsut do not know what to do or how to respond to certain things that happen or things that are said. Especially the few that seem to instantly annoy me to no end. But then again that particualr reaction comes from everyone seeming to always want more no matter what I do or what I give. Work, home, friends, and family. Makes a person feel unappreciated and taken advantage of at times. I do something, its either not enough, and/or they want more. So I step up and do the best I can with that and its still never enough.

Don't really have anyone to reach out to either. Its just me all by my lonesome most of the time. People I do know either wouldn't understand (or care most times) or I wouldn't want to talk to them about certain things anyways. Creepy as it would be.

And it seems certain parts of me are again falling by the wayside in favor of pragmatism and I dislike that immensely and it never makes me happy in the slightest. Part of me is missing and almost non existant and I don't like that and can't live or thrive liek that. But like I said, pragmatism has to take a forefront sometimes, most times it seems.

Oh well.