tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10775034234891692602011-11-27T19:48:27.706-08:00My own little twisted dark little haven in cyberspace for all those thoughts swirling around in my head be they personal reflections, random thoughts about my life, kinks and fetishes, poly, BDSM, and M/s relationships and just about anything else that crosses my devious little mind.Shadowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04947342478523354514noreply@blogger.comBlogger331100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1077503423489169260.post-26829296056048372782011-11-27T18:59:00.000-08:002011-11-27T18:59:57.871-08:00

This particular subject came to mind a few days ago as I introduced a friend to the infamous 128 Basic Slave Rules and then sat there snickering to myself at her reactions to them. If you haven't read them before and havent the faintest what I am talking about, a quick Google search will bring them up. Keep in mind these things have been kicking around since at least '98, and they were ridiculed

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Most of the time, when I get an urge to write, or have been thinking about something, etc etc, I simply just sit down and write and by and large fail to pay attention to much else. When I write everything else tends to fade out to the edges at times. In any case, I noticed I have followers now. Something new as I don't recall that ever happening before. So, I bid you welcome, and please feel

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It occurs to me that oft times I have a little to much mental wandering time. And I mean that my mind often wanders from one subject to the next and back again whilst I'm working for example. Most of the people I work with would most likely be horrified by the thoughts that swirl around in my head, but truthfully I would think they'd know me well enouh by now to expect that sort of thing. I'm not

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Bear in mind this is my opinion. It does not make what I say either right or wrong, it simply makes it my opinion and how I tend to view things. Take that as you will. I try not to get to much into labels, other than the ones I personally self identify with. For everyone else I see labels pretty much in the same manner. As long as the terminology is actually understood, what another person self

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I'm remembering why I have always been so annoyed by daylight savings time. Despite the fact that at the very least the fall back portion of daylight savings time is infinitely better than the 'Spring Forward' portion. In any case, the extra time in bed, notice I did not say sleeping because I was awake most of the night in a kind of on off daze, gave me a bit of time to process a lot of things

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                I’ve been thinking quite a bit about certain things as of late. A lot of it has to do with some of the books I’ve been starting to reread, and part of it has to do with other thoughts swirling into my head.                 Now over the years, as well as a few lately, I have seen quite a few lists, thesis, etc. on what purports to be the ‘Qualities of a Dominant’ or something

Shadowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04947342478523354514noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1077503423489169260.post-33658072148156103422011-10-30T19:37:00.000-07:002011-10-30T19:37:27.415-07:00

It's...been a while. I'm not going to go into the details, but suffice to say I've pulled back from just about everything in my life recently. I have my reasons and that is about all that I'm going to say on the matter. Despite all of this however I do think it's time to get the ball rolling again so to speak. Just a matter of figuring out how and figuring out what it is I'm going to do. Don't

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You would think with this being the last week of school before my degree is complete, that I would be a lot happier being in this week than I am. Though I do believe that has something to do with a lot of homework (4 papers of several thousand words) being due this week as part of the finals, a bit of boredom with the whole process, as well as aggravation and frustration within my daily life.

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I keep getting almost daily reminders of why I choose not to participate in many online discussion forums anymore. As I have stated in the past, I just do not find much in common with the vast majority of people involved in wahtever discussions are being had on said forums. A lot of this is due to the fact that, yes, my views often conflict with what is considered the status quo. And I believe

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Despite what anyone may tell you, I actually am a patient sort of guy...well...with most things anyways. I swear if I don't get my coffee right here right now when I want it and how I want it people are in dire risk of severe bodily harm. Ahem Anyways, starting up my own little thing again. Slowly but surely dipping first my toe and then as time permits, other parts of me back into the waters

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There is a precedence to things. I.E., some things will always take precedence to other things. Sort of a prioritizing kind of situation. Right now, most everything for me is put on hold. Shunted to the back of my mind and locked away for a variety of reasons. Mostly because I worry about certain things (or people rather) so I put myself into standby mode. Right now Chel worries me a lot. Her

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On friday night, around 5pm or so, I saw my Atilla for the last time for most of the weekend. All day saturday I looked for him, hoping he would show up and come strolling back in to crash out in his spot on the couch. As the day went on I kept going out to look for him, most of the dayt and going back out repeatedly to check and call for him a good portion of the night. When I got up this

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Of all the things to be wrong about, they had to be wrong about the day of the RApture. Here I was getting all ready and excited for all of "those" people to be gone so I could get in some serious looting and pillaging in, and they have to fuck it up and stick around. No fair.I'm sure it's some sort of conspiracy, Probably in leauge with Toyota too. Bastards. Eh, gives me more time to sort

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Well, Vacation time is almost over. Bleh on all that. I really do not wish to return to work again on monday, but then again I do rather enjoy the fact that they pay me to do so and by the end of this week that will be really helpful. Prius is still in the shop which is..aggravating and expensive and will end up costing me quite a bit of money. I do not like that in the slightest. But it does

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I suck at blogging. I know this, you know this, it's probably written on some Mayan wall somewhere prophesising how badly I am going to always be at this sort of thing....why not they supposedly prophesised everyone else. And when it comes down to it, I can just blame the whole thing on the oncomming end of civilzation and humanity next year. Come to think of it, humanity was not, and is not all

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Toyota now officially hates me and is doing everything to annoy me. After fricken dealer installed a fucked up battery in the car before selling it, which died friday, which by the way got taken into Kragen to get it looked at and got told it was one of worst they seen, Toyota jsut sent me an email saying they will not ship me a new 12V for my Prius. Bastards. Even if they are refunding my

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Slowly, very slowly, I am getting more active. And even though I've quite had to roll my eyes and restrain myself a few times from responding to quite a few posts on fetlife, I do believe I'm feeling slightly more comfortable with the whole thing. Who knows, we'll see. And BTW, I apparently suck at blogging just judging by the date of the last post I made here. Time flies when you've got

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It has been a long few weeks and I have found myself not really wanting to post on this blog, or any other for that matter. Hell, I havent even caught up on my reading yet. This has mostly to do with the fact that I ahve other things to do that take precedence (like school work) or just wantign to relax and become a potato after work. Which is sad because I am really enjoying Peter Master's

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It's been a whil esince I've had the time or inclination really to post on this blog. And I really should get back into the swing of things, but I have a few things I need to take care of first and foremost. Chel been settling in rather nicely and getting into the swing of things. It's been a good month and I really enjoy having her around. I do think that enough time has passed, enough time has

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Now it may be just me, but with all the recommendations I have heard over the years for the book "The Loving Dominant", I actually expected quite a bit more than what it actually is. Not to take anything away from John Warren or anything as I have read quite a few of his articles here and there on this and that. The problem comes in when the book is not at all what I expected it to be. In fact,

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Well its been a semi long week abd while I have had multiple opportunitues to post on this blog, I just havent had the energy, time or quite frankly the will to post on it for the last week. Mostly because I've been doiug other things like schoolwork, spending time with my girl ad making sure she's all settled in and comfortable. That and being sick for almost the entire week now. Yes, my girl

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I'm a somewhat impatient person. I know this, I freely admit this. And it's fitting that the first post to this blog for the new year shows that. Especially from what I'm getting impatient about. Finally after a long wait, and several mishaps, my girl is coming home tommorrow. It's been a while, and I'm quite looking forward to getting my hands on her and making sure there is no doubt whatsoever

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Well today somewhat sucked. Outside of being frigid cold with the wind blowinga t 60 miles an hour on me all day long, there really was nothing to do but be out there in it. No real work to be done. I despise that. But thats not what got me in a  foul mood today. Someone overslept and missed her scheduled bus from Michigan. In and of itself this would ahve been just a slight delay, but after

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Ok I got two new toyish items in today, with good review on one and a somewhat mixed review on the other. But for as inexpensive as they were, you really can't complain to much and you have to adhere to the old adage of 'you get what you pay for." And truthfully I never though of Amazon selling these sorts of things anyways, and I general procure online from either Subshop or JT's. But for the

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I've actually moved most of my old blog over to here. There are a lot of reasons for that happening, most of which have to do with having to make a fresh start and to quite frankly prioritize who I am and whats going on with my life. This is unfortunately how it has to be and there is nothing much that can be done about that. I'm going to try to keep up with this blog, and I was doing pretty

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Like most people I’m sure, I have a strong dislike for other people taking what I say or what I write, twisting it around and throwing it back at me as some sort of accussation. It aggravates me, annoys me and immediately makes me switch off wanting to deal with whatever it is that is going on that brought that along. Yes, life sucks. And no matter how talented I may or may not be I cannot

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Well the very first package has arrived. Unfortunately the present for my dad wasn’t in the box, and in fact nothing I’d really want him to see actually.  I’m sure he actually has quite a bit of an idea, he has seen the bamboo cane that I have hanging on my wall in my bedroom after all, and he’s not an idiot. I think its more of a situation of not wanting to know truthfully. But what the package

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I despise rain. Moreso when I have to be out in it for over eight hours at a time with very few opportunities to get under cover and dry off even a little bit. But I did manage to find a few new ways to re-affirm to people that I’m not all there in the head (wearing a big yellow raincoat and telling people I was a Twinkie cause I was yellow on the outside and white on the inside) or just being

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To be honest I’m really not sure why I bother with a great deal of the discussion groups and like minded forums that I have signed up for here and there. Either I quickly grow tired of the drama and one ups-manship that seems to be prevalent in BDSM themed boards and groups or the elitism of it all quickly wears on me and I find myself banging my head on the desk or rolling my eyes. Can’t for

Shadowhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04947342478523354514noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1077503423489169260.post-38195044625767568672010-12-27T19:03:00.001-08:002010-12-27T19:03:36.090-08:00

It never ceases to amaze me at how often little things tend to get in the way of simply living life and enjoying the things that I like to do.  Work takes up a lot of my time and my thoughts ,mostly in the category of having only limited amount of time to do things when I get home before I have to slip into bed and wake up at 3am to start it all over again, and what time I do have from work

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As hard as it may be to believe, or admit for that matter come to think about it, my thoughts and perceptions on things is not the end all be all about a great many things. I freely admit that I do not know everything and I’m not always 100% correct all the time. Just most of the time. I have my own perception of things and how certain things should be, should be conducted and done and things of

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Somewhat of an interesting discussion on the Fetlife Masters/slaves group that I’ve been reading up a lot lately. The subject was basically on honorifics and titles such as Master, Mistress, Sir, Ma’am and things of that nature and how they are used and applied as well as what they mean to each person. Not to mention why they use them. For me it is somewhat of a complicated issue. I generally

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I’ve started realizing something.  Although maybe this is just me and my own depraved and perverted world, but I’m starting to realize something about myself, or rather who I associate myself with. More to the point, I really don’t think I have a single normal friend or aquaintance outside or work..which really doesn’t count due to it being Hollywood and no one is really normal out here. But that

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